It's the 1st of January, 2010!
I say this all the time, but it's true as it is, TIME FLIES.
I find myself avoiding to type this. But I know if I don't finish I wouldn't be able to get a good night's sleep tonight.
First, is the new years resolution.
1. I want to love the loving boyf more. & be an awesome lover.
2. Study my A-levels properly. Ace it and get into a good uni.
3. Sleep earlier and drink more water.
4. Love my boyf and love my boyf and love my boyf.
why am I stressing on loving the boyf?
i don't know. I think I love him. I mean, I think he's the perfect guy for me. He loves me. I don't want to lose him. He's all I got.
He's always there for me when I needed someone, or even something. He's there when I needed a friend or a punching bag. When I needed my mum or some food. He's really there all the time.
Why do I have to remind myself all of this so that I'll realise that I love him? It's bloody unfair to him.
If he were to get down on his knees and ask him to marry me now, I might have to think twice.
It's really not him, it is me.
if I don't love him, then I'm really missing out on a chance of a lifetime, he is afterall, the guy of my dreams. but how come I don't feel it sometimes. am i not supposed to feel it all the time.
But still, I love him. Like he said, plain as it is. I love him. that's the bottom line and that's what matters.
I love you Jun Wei. You're the awesomest. haha. (: